Once I was feeling better physically, my boyfriend and I decided we wanted to honor the Super Bowl The Kelce Bowl Jason vs Travis Shirt so you should to go to store and get this loss by carrying out a small ritual. We went and collected flowers and we created a mandala. We said a few words and did a little meditation. It was really important to have that ritual to just say goodbye and almost draw a line in the sand. I would always say to another woman that’s going through it: Despite how supportive your partner is, and mine is incredibly supportive and did everything in his power to support me, it’s so hard for a man to understand what you’re going through. It’s hard for men to understand the pain. It’s hard for them to understand the shock that you experience every time you go to the bathroom because of what’s coming out of you. Despite the grief they might feel or however supportive they are, I think it’s so important to talk to women that have been through this because you just need that support. When I talked to women who had been through this experience versus those who hadn’t, I realized there was a major difference between them because going through the pain and understanding the loss that a miscarriage entails, is unlike any other experience.
Now I just feel like I’m trying to reset, and I’m trying to find that hope again. I know this sounds crazy, but even through the Super Bowl The Kelce Bowl Jason vs Travis Shirt so you should to go to store and get this grief and the pain, I’m filled with gratitude today. I don’t feel as low as I did. I really, really didn’t feel like I was going to come out of it because it was such a dark period. Everything reminded me of what had happened. But now I just feel a little more normal again. I feel like my old self and I think a huge part of that honestly comes down to hormones. We forget how much our hormones affect our mental health. I do still feel sad and talking about it makes me feel incredibly emotional, but I’m not waking up sobbing every day, like I was before. It hasn’t ended up in the way that I wanted and that’s painful, but I am grateful that I have been able to get pregnant twice–a lot of women don’t even have that. I’m already starting to find that glimmer of hope, which is creeping back. And that glimmer of hope is about trying again. I’m apprehensive—it’s that feeling of, I don’t know how I would cope if I had a third loss—but hopeful.
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